coulda beens

I had a dream where my ex-boyfriend came back for me just before I was getting married to Joshua. He came in hoping to sweep me off my feet, apologized for being an asshole and for a moment in my dream I'd considered it. I woke up and was late for work, but made to sure to mention it to Joshua, but then got really nervous about it, and changed my mind. He was still in dreamland so he didn't really remember what I'd told him.

The morning however, the idea had still lingered and I'd started considering it more and more the possibilities of what could of been if my ex and I had ever gotten back together at any point in time. The weird life I would be having right now, I'd probably be back in Texas, being a supportive wife to a husband who works too much and getting really fat as my ex eats really really rich foods that are horrible for him. These thoughts quickly started to repel me and I couldn't think of the idea anymore solely based on the fact that I can't see myself not living in a city.